From 2009 to 2011 was a struggle, but I am proud to say that without those trials and tribulations, we wouldn't be where we are today. This blog is dedicated to my husband, my best friend, my sailor, and the beginning to our beautiful marriage.
Leaves empty candy wrappers lying around our room.
When we’re together, every second is exactly like how every doe-eyed child would wish for - pure happiness. Like, when I giggle, he giggles, in a very mockingly adorable way. Or when I make silly faces, he mirrors the same silly faces at me. And when I pucker my lips, no matter how many times, he pecks mine with his puckered lips so innocently. Just thinking about today’s challenge, my mind played back to all of our sweet memories, wishes, and dreams, as if it was playing a movie back for me. And like this weekend, this weekend probably brought the biggest smile on my face because maybe it was the most recent which I rememebered the strongest, but, when the both of us had woken up and declared that we were going to go down stairs to eat, my husband planted his cheek onto mine and said, ”We’re Siamese twins! Now we have to do everything together!” That single moment, my heart stole all of my energy because I couldn’t help but have the biggest smile of my face and the giggles jumping around in my tummy.
It’s beyond freakishly amazing. We have sex multiple times the day, throughout the day, to the point where I’m sore and I can no longer self lubricate. We go from oral to physical to oral and to physical. Even during the days where neither of us feel like having sex, we are both comfortable enough to simply touch each other out of the joy of just having it there. I’m more than satisfied with my sex life. My husband isn’t just my partner, he’s a sex God.
It happened last year. Rashaad and I were constantly arguing. I became vulnerable. I had a male friend who I was also coworkers with. I suppose you can sense where I’m going with this. I did tell Rashaad about what had happened. I expected him to break things off with me, but to my surprise, he didn’t. I’m not proud of what I had done. I was ashamed of myself and to this day, I still am. My husband is an amazing man and goes to extreme length to make sure that I’m happy. Often times, I tell him that I don’t deserve him, but every time, he disagrees and convinces me otherwise. After that, I promised him that I would make things up to him and I’d like to say that I have changed since then. We don’t argue as much, I try to be more understanding, but most importantly, I tell him everything about my day and especially how I feel no matter how ugly my statements are because my husband deserves the truth, my faithfulness, and commitment.
“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
- Marilyn Monroe
