From 2009 to 2011 was a struggle, but I am proud to say that without those trials and tribulations, we wouldn't be where we are today. This blog is dedicated to my husband, my best friend, my sailor, and the beginning to our beautiful marriage.
3 years and 4 months ago, I would have never had imagined my life anywhere close to where it is now. I felt myself heading towards a path of destruction due to misguidance. The person I idolized had left me high and dry at such a young age that I felt I was the one at a loss. I stopped believing in all forms of love whether it be from my “soul mate” or from my own family. I had given up on even attempting to find happiness because I was more than ready to just die the next day. I remember when you called to ask to hang out with me after we had met. I always said no, but you persisted. The day I gave in was the day I had no idea that my life was about to turn around and from that day forward, you never failed to show me the love and support you have for me. Granted it took some time, but you never gave up on me and for that, I am thankful. To call you the best husband in the world is an understatement. You, my love, is the ultimate blessing God himself could ever give me. Happy 1 year anniversary, honey. I love you<3
It’s been a while and a lot has happened. I’d like to say mostly good than bad. Ves and I have finally moved out of his family’s house and got our own apartment in San Diego. Though it was a shame to leave, it was an amazing feeling to be given the opportunity to begin our life as a married couple. Moving day was chaotic, but that was nearly two months ago so we are very well settled in, and enrolled into school about a week later. Ves had about a month off so we spent every single day together whether it was watching TV, playing video games, or napping together. Now we’re back on a routine schedule and though most times we’re both extremely exhausted, I’m just happy to say that we can come back to our own home, lay down together, in our underwear, or sometimes none at all.
(I cried reading this)
I cannot promise you every night of my life.
I cannot promise to be beside you for every difficult moment, every trial, and every hardship.
In truth, I can promise you that I will not be with you for most.
I will leave you at inconvenient times.
Any special date to to us may be tainted with the anniversary of the death of one of my friends.
I will ask you to take over whatever life we have built together for months and years at a time.
And will then crash back into that life that you have used your sweat, your tears and your heartache to keep together, and try to take it back as I knew it before.
I will shut you out at times because it will be the best way for me to hold it together at that moment.
I will lie to you.
I will tell you I don’t know things when I do.
I will not always tell you where I am going, when I will be back, or who I am with.
I may not call you for weeks and months and you will not be able to call me.
You will ask questions that I won’t answer.
You will know answers to questions that you will hope you never need. I will share things with my brothers that you will never understand.
They will know things about me that you never will.
They will be a support to me in some things that you cannot be.
I will miss birthdays.
I will miss anniversaries.
I may need time to process things that seem natural to everyone else.
It will seem that someone - or something - will always take precedence over you.
I will uproot you and ask you to re-establish our family anywhere in the world, in any season, at any time - over and over again.
Sand and mud will be tracked through your halls from the boots I am too tired to take off.
I will leave you when you beg me not to.
I will stand at attention while you cry beside me.
I will not turn my head and I will walk away.
I will knowingly break your heart.
And I will do it again - and again.
I cannot promise you all of me.
I cannot promise you much of anything.
But if you will have me, I can promise that as I march away from you, it is not without sharing your heartache.
I promise you that every time I break your heart I will be breaking mine.
Every time that I cannot answer you I will be protecting you.
Whenever you want to call and you have no number to dial, I will be wanting to do the same.
I will protect everything that we have created together with every fiber of my being while you do the same back at home.
I will honor you in everything - every moment that we are apart and every moment that I am with you.
I will fight harder and push further knowing that I do so for you.
And I will carry you with me in everything, until my sandy boots once again sit just inside our door.
(Source: doublesoldierduo)
Carly Rose Sonenclar | Brokenhearted
Wow. She’s so amazing.
She’s my fave! When she sang this song though, her voice reminded me of another singer. Can’t figure out who it is.
